It would not have been enough for me to just give up dating, but it was imperative to replace that void with the Lord.
I also told Him that if it was not His will that Id ever marry, that Id be willing to serve Him in whatever way He wanted, even if He wanted to send me as a single missionary to a hut in the middle of Africa, to be killed in a muslim country, or to just be a janitor in my local church.
This faithfulness was not only physical, but also a faithfulness in heart and in eyes.
I also know young people who played the "dating game" and who are now in the ministry, serving the Lord with all their hearts.
However, it is always awkward when a certain evangelist comes to minister because he used to be the pastors wifes boyfriend!
"Ellen, will you put your dating life on the altar?
" This question haunted me for a little while, for I knew that He was asking me to trust Him with the question of marriage.
Finally, after much prayer, I made a covenant with the Lord, wrote it on paper, signed it, and prayed over it with my pastors wife.
In this covenant I told the Lord that I would trust Him with my future mate, and that whatever time I would be spending with a boyfriend, Id spend with God in prayer and in the Word instead.
Nevertheless, I had never heard of anyone doing such and did not know exactly how to go about doing it. However, I knew that God wanted to take me to a deeper walk with Him.
Certain verses started to get my attention as I sought the Lord. But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you." (Mat.
He kept pouring more and more of His presence in my life, teaching me out of the Scriptures, and visiting me in my devotions. Words cannot describe the way I felt as God fulfilled all my longings to be married, "For thy Maker is thine husband; the LORD of hosts is his name." (Isa 54:5).